Being in a hole of depression after years of fighting for custody, child support and eventually divorce, is something I would expect from someone. Yet, I don't know how many others get it.
The single moms I know get it, for the most part. I don't know any other woman who have had to do it alone, completely alone.
Yes, my family has been a huge help. Just to get things done. But there have not been any extras.
I think I have lost some of my friends.
I don't know if they understand. I don't know if they care.
I have shut myself out. Not completely intentional.
Who wants to be the one in a group of friends, to be the depressing one? The one who isn't going anywhere? Who can't do anything?
I know I don't want it to me be.
No one wants to hear about the interstate legal battle for child support. No one gives a crap that I haven't seen money in a year and a half. I don't need to see the sad looks when I answer "no, he hasn't spoken to his son in almost a year. And no he doesn't even try".
They tell me they understand how hard things are. They compare their situations with mine.
I will NEVER deny that we all have our problems. I will NEVER say mine are worse. But please don't compare your raising your kids with your husband to my raising my son alone.
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