Transition day

If all works out for me, I will finally have my maiden name and no longer need to use the name I took.
As soon as this is done, the next step is my sons name.
I do understand that this is a bit unconventional, but so is my life.
I will say this, the ex wasn't too bad about giving permission. We actually agreed to use both last names, just push his back to a second middle name. Fine by me, no one pays attention to that anyway.
No, I don't feel any remorse or guilt in doing this either. It has the been the hard work, emotional support and financial support that has gotten us through the past few years.
I'll let you know what happens when I get out of here ... Fingers crossed...

Bitch session ...

Google "assistance for single
Moms" and a bazillion websites come up. Maybe 10 are actually meant to help. The rest want a credit card to confirm your information, or your email address to spam your email with nonsense about money or other crap.
I found cafemom.com and there are a great amount of women on that site, but I find the information very random.
NYC is very particular about certain things.
Example- if you are born in one of the five boros, you MUST deal with that counties social security office even if you just need a replacement card?
Or.. The same goes if you are in need of any kind of assistance. You can only go to that county office.
You can imagine what the lines look like on a day to day basis in these offices. I also have a new found respect for the people who work there. I'd be grumpy too....
I'm in the process of getting my paperwork together to get my new drivers license in the morning.
I would have exchanged my old Texas license ages ago, but one of NY's wonderful little snags, I needed to have proof of the date of issue on my license.
Yes, that's right Date Of ISSUE...
Since Texas doesn't put it on their licenses, I had to get a copy of my records from Texas.
Let's just see how it goes in the morning.

BOY am I random...

I do need to look into any kind of legitimate assistance for single mothers they have out there.
I haven't gotten child support in over a year, the state is helping, but if the SOB doesn't have a job, what can anyone do.
Got some credit cards, but they are all maxed and can't pay them off.
Trying to find at home legit work. If I come up with anything, I'll pass it on.
Right now, I have found Pintrest, this amazing web board site, where I am getting a million DIY and cost cutting ideas!
Next, on the look out for a single mom support group... Still haven't found one I click with yet...
I gotta keep trying...
Well, I've gotten a bit off my chest for the night. Now that I have this on my phone, it'll be easier for me to update . I'm kind of excited to see where this could lead...
Have a good night!

Gotta get in gear....

I keep saying I need to write every day.  I should, its healthy.  But life being as it is, I can barely get the time, let alone remember the password for my account.. 
WOW ..  

So, I'm in the new place.  Still not unpacked.  My son is trying to find his toys in boxes and crates. 
I'm half tempted to not even bother to finish unpacking.  I NEED OUT.
I got pushed into this shoe box of an apartment because my old landlord needed the apartment I was in for his daughter who's husband left HER and her kid.   Too much of a familiar story.
I'm starting to look, but there are so many things to think about....  my son is supposed to start kindergarten this fall.  If I move to Nassau county, he may not fall in the age bracket to be able to start. 

But, that's a small part of my problems. 

The money to move is one....

Money seems to be a HUGE issue for almost everyone I know.   Sometimes, it makes me feel better to see my friends, with two incomes, have financial problems as well.  Obviously the problems are not the same type of problems, but they are problems....

Is that petty of me?  I don't think so....

The financial cycle is one that I wish I cold stop, but it's moving way too fast.

You have no money, so you borrow money or get credit.  Eventually you cant pay that back, so you borrow more.  You expect to get money from a source (in my case - child support), but the dead beat loses his job and you get nothing, and you borrow more.... 
You get my point....

I try to find legitimate jobs to do online at home at night.  KEY WORD - LEGITIMATE.
Maybe its just me, but I don't see why I should pay anyone in advance for a "kit" when I am just going to be making them money down the road.  I'm also supposed to believe that this is a GREAT OFFER.
Really????
Started an Avon business...  between the move and my son, I had to slow down temporarily.  I can pick it back up but for now....

I have already shut out most of my friends while I have been embarrassed and in a hole of shame.


Well, on that very pathetic note...  Ive rambled enough for today.....I'm going to be back tomorrow...  I promise...