Every one starts their new year off with a list of resolutions that by March, they barely remember what they were.
I decided that this year, would be my year to just better myself. No "I'm going to lose weight", or "I'm going to start exercising". I just want to be a better ME.
So far, I have started my Home Budget Binder, a new journal, eating healthier, and trying to purge the excess junk in my house.
I'm also trying to get Chris to do the same. I want him to start eating healthier and purging some of his extra toys. All he keeps talking about now if what he is going to get, and his list for Christmas next year.
Now, I of course have already gone through some of his toys and moved them out. He doesn't even realize it. He needs to learn that he cant keep adding to this pile of toys. He needs to follow the "new in, old out" theory. I have spoiled him. Its easy to try to over compensate when you are a single parent. Especially when the child is looking for the other parent and they are no where to be found.
The end of 2013 for me was awful. My son's sperm donor decided to respond to a text I sent after about 15 others to try to contact him. It was a disgusting show of obscenity and a farce. I did allow him to call Chris for his birthday, as long as he understood that he would be on speaker and if he said anything negative about me that would be the last call.
It was the most insensitive phone call. Like the call was just done to anger me. "How tall are you now?" "what sports do you play?" just examples of the conversation....
I'm at the point where I really just want him as far away as possible. I want Chris to know absolutely NOTHING about his sperm donor. I won't do that to him, but I really want to.
Later I will post pics from Chris's birthday and Christmas and fill you in some more.
I just hope this year will be the year for ME!!!! Fingers crossed everyone.
"Hold on tight, its going to a bumpy night"
